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Hey everyone! Im back (finally) after a super-long break.... Wow i came back and didnt realise my pageview had gotten to 3000!! Yay!! Hehez...!! And I'm really thankful for your support, even though i wasnt around for so long

Anyways sorry for the people who have been looking forward to some of my works... I still wont be submitting anything soon... >_<

Well firstly because i've been busy doing my comic, and secondly i STILL dont have a scanner... XD Hehez! Sorry guyz... I also see loads of new amazing artworks from my friends up here that i sadly havent had the time to comment on, and there's so many i'll try to check on as much as possible... >_<" BUT that doesnt mean i wont!

Love y'all, i'll be back soon... <



P/S: IMPORTANT NOTICE: My upcoming manga title will change, and no longer be 'Angels and Demons' but something else not yet known... ^_^




私はあなたを愛しています。


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Shaz Kageshima a.k.a. ShazzyD

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Hey there, everyone! I’d like to give you guys who have commented on my previous journal a huge Thank You!! Your kind words and advice have really lifted my spirits. Every comment that I received I read really carefully, realizing my own mistakes and irrational behaviour as I understood the logic that came behind your words… I’m just kinda extreme sometimes with my emotions ya see... But once again, as happened in the past, my friends were there to help me, and this time it came from you guys… Really, words cannot express the gratitude that I’m feeling right now… It doesn’t matter how many times we fall…. What matters is how we get up and try again to succeed… Life is precious, and I seemed to have forgotten that in that moment…

My friends and I have gone our separate ways, going about the next stage in our lives. It’s a bit sad when I think about it sometimes, since we went through so much together… Two are going to the army, one is gonna be a nurse, another is taking up a course in interior architecture, which I thought was a pretty damn good choice, and one more is planning on going to university to take up a degree in psychology…. They’re all my friends from school. Then there’s my breakdancing crew, most whom are older than me, going into the general mainstream stereotype engineering courses, which is totally cool, but something I came to hate but later thought otherwise recently…

There’s seriously nothing wrong with engineering, there’s plenty of jobs out here in my country for people with electrical and mechanical expertise, and I might take it up too. But the main focus, my main direction, is still in the art and medical stream. That’s where I excel in, that’s where I truly belong. No matter how long it takes, I’ll find my path. I have a life to fulfill, and I hope to be able to use my abilities to the fullest, but for now, it’s one step at a time.

Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.

私はあなたを愛しています。


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Shaz Kageshima a.k.a. ShazzyD

He's doing it again. Brain-washing my mind. I never knew such a person would exist in my life. Its as if he'll be the one taunting me all the way until the end of my life. All my hopes shattered by listening to him talk. All my beliefs, all that i've worked for in life, all came to nothing when he said, Let's be realistic. What is realistic? Facts or belief? Facts remain facts only when people believe they are facts. It's like knowing that it's there but not recognising it's existence. I believe i can, yet he limits me, with the choices that were fit only for the lowliest of the low. When i got poor results, he BELIEVED i could do nothing better, except fix some lightings and equiptment. Why would i waste my time if i knew i would become a doctor? Would you even question me when i get to a polytecnic? Would you question me if i get what i believe i would get? No, you wont. You wont say anything. You cant. You think i cant think for my own sake but i can. My problem is that i dont voice out what i believe in, and i dont talk about my feelings the way you people do. I have an artistic nature. I draw, i paint, i play an instrument, i breakdance. That's what i do. That's how i express myself. Do you think Singapore caters to people like me? To students like me? No they dont. That's the bitter truth. The government wants people who are academically inclined, who read books like nerds and score high points by memorising the textbook. That's Singapore. People like me dont fit in this kind of society. That's the fact, the truth that made me bitter, confused, angry and helpless at the same time. You crushed my dreams of becoming an artist, which would never happen you say. But it's only what you say from a logical point of view. I believe in miracles and faith. I believe that whatever i was born to do, whatever i worked hard to achieve, i will get it, by the Grace of God. It is the Lord Whom will decide my fate. I will rely on Him for whatever may come in the future, and i make sure i'll work hard for whatever i want. Yeah, he said now, with my kind of results like that dont dream, dont get all the fantasy, getting a job at a lab is too difficult, forget it, dont waste your time and money. You want me to give an easier life to my parents. Then let me tell you, I believed you that time, for almost the whole period of the time you talked to me about the art industry. Where am i going to get the job? It's all foreigners who get it. The arts in Singapore is just a hype to bring foreign talent in to work in Singapore, not the locals to help them in the industry....You think i cant think for myself? You think i dont know what you're thinking? You think that i'm as good as nothing, reduced only to work as electrical and mechanical, all of which repels me. I'm not that kind of person. I'm an artist, I'm a doctor. My aim in life is to help others. To help my family first, then other relatives, then my friends and my patients. They are what i'm aiming for. Im not aiming for material gain here. They only have value in this world. I want to help others, through medicine, through therapies, not through fixing stuff for others. That is not wihin my scope. That is not within my interest, not what i wanted, never even thought it was possible for me to do that. You think i dont think so too? You think i didnt care? I'm reaching adulthood, and you're still confusing me. I regretted the day i ever talked to you about polytechnic, because you ruined my life, you ruined my mind. You've ruined everything i ever believed in. Stop confusing me! All i want is to become an artist, now you've twisted my mind and made me want to become a doctor. Now you've twisted my mind again, believing that i was a good for nothing, only fit to repair cheap electrical appliances. You'd think i'd have sworn by now but i dont. I'm just trying to find a proper reason for me not to pursue what i've always wanted in life. You've ruined me, now i'm never gonna listen to you, you broke my trust, you broke my life, my faith and beliefs, dont expect me to believe whatever you said, no matter how 'realistic' it is. I did my o levels in confusion and wonder. What the hell am i sitting for the o levels for? I could forget about art, since there's no hope, yet i never believed that was true, not even for a second. I second guessed my talent lots of times, no matter the support i had from my teachers, staff, collegues, friends from different walks of life. I was constantly supported, yet i was left all alone to fight for my beliefs. What had i been aiming for in life all this while? Had my parents wasted their money on me? I never wanted to think so, yet at the back of my mind i constantly thought to myself, Who am i in this world?
Who am i?
Who?






_{I'm sorry, i just had to write all that down. I've just been really down lately, really really down... And pls dont misunderstand if any of the words may seem offensive to you... I would really appreciate it if someone could help me answer that question right now...}

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So The Story Goes...


Hey there everyone!

I know, i know... My profile's been stagnant since like... forever I'm so so sorry! The results of my efforts (as in my comic) shall be shown soon... But please please be patient... It's been a long journey and all, i never thought the comic would take on so many pages for each chapter! But i LOVE it!! Yeah... and that's that. ^_^

Apart from that, i've also been making contest entries for Brokenaoshi's contest and
Clayscence's contest.

Check them out!
contest: [link]
contest: [link]


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Well i hope that everyone's doing well...
i'd like to apologise again for the people who have always been looking forward to seeing my new deviations, as well as my friends whom i havent had a pleasant chat with for a long time... you guys know who you are! Sumimasen, minna-san!

Just wanna let y'all know that i still and will always LOVE you guys!!

And for that i wish to dedicate these few words to everyone supporting me on DA.com... ^_^

Beauty of Love

Love must be treasured
If you really love someone
Treasure that person deeply
Love is a wonderful process
It must not be rushed
Nor must you let it stay hanging
Let it come by naturally


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For the moment they're just words not yet formed into poetry, but i'll probably use it for my comic *hint*hint*

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Well i just got tagged by !!! Let's get started...!

1. Post these rules
2. Each person must post 8 random facts about themselves
3. Tags should write a journal about these facts
4. At the end tag 8 more people
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged

Things about me:

~I~ I have dark hair and eyes
~II~ 2 Bs - Breakdance n Basketball
~III~ I wanna tablet!!
~IV~ Working bloody hard on a comic right now...
~V~ I need more sleep !!
~VI~ Always semi-concious nowadays (in other words, daydreaming XD)
~VII~ I'm teaching Taekwondo to a local neighbourhood sch, which also happens to be my previous sch! ^_^
~VIII~ I have an obsession with Erika Sawajiri XD

Well i hope they're interesting enough...

Now me gonna tag...:























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Upcoming Comic/Manga/Graphic Novel project:

"Angels and Demons, Their Forbidden Love"

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While i was doing some research, i stumbled upon something AWESOME!! ONLINE COMICS!! Though they're original and sometimes a bit untidy to read, i soon found out how engaged i was into the story... check them out!! :

No Rest For The Wicked: [link]

and more great Online Comic stuff: [link]

...enjoy! ♥



Well Wishes
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Shaz Kageshima aka Shazzy D

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\\....So The Story Goes....//


Quote of the day:
"The Leader Is Their Servant"


Okay, so for all of you who have read my previous previous journal entry, i said that i was gonna be posting coloured artworks. But some unfortunate events took place that caused serious damage to my progression. And was also the cause of my inactive-ness on DA...

First and most importantly, my laptop crashed. A virus was destroying the system files in the system and pretty soon i could not even log in to Windows. So the last resort was to reboot and reformat the whole system, which caused me to lose important information, including the photoshop works that i foolishly did not save on a thumbdrive....

Secondly, i dont have a scanner anymore. The previous one kept scanning black images....X(
So usually now i go to a friend's house to borrow his scanner. I dont want to be an inconvenience to him, so i was planning to buy my own. That's the problem.

Thirdly, i dont have a tablet!!! I realised that the mouse just have it's limits... So hopefully when i get my pay near end of Jan 2008, i'll be able to buy an affordable one.... ^_^



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Upcoming Comic/Manga/Graphic Novel project:

"Angels and Demons, Their Forbidden Love"





Have A GREAT year ahead!! ^_^





Well Wishes
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Shaz Kageshima aka Shazzy D